The next thing I knew, I was standing in a place I had never been before. I couldn’t see anything. It was just grey all around me. I started to walk around until finally I heard a voice. It was asking for people’s names. I couldn’t see so I followed the man’s voice. Finally, I found a man standing at a podium. He was looking down at a book and asked me for my name. So I told him. In front of me was a old broken down gate. It was rusty and falling apart. The man at the podium told me OK you may enter. I walked up to the gate but all I saw was grey. So I walked back to the man and said, sir? There’s nothing on the other side. He told me to turn back around and my heart stopped. It took my breath away. I saw a very tall wall that looked like it was made out of Jasper. There was 12 gates and there was an angel standing at each gate. There was a sign above that said God’s Dwelling Place on it. The twelve gates had the twelve tribes of Israel written above them: Reuben, Simeon, Levi, Issachar, Judah, Naphtali, Dan, Zebulun, Gad, Benjamin, Joseph and Asher. All 12 gates were made of the most beautiful pearls I’ve ever seen. The angel at the gate I was standing at grabbed my hand and said, please come in, there’s so much to see.
So I walked through those gates and as I did, I felt a warmth come over me and not just that but also a peace like I have never experienced in my life. Everything was so beautiful. The colors seemed to be alive. I looked down at my feet, the streets were made of a transparent gold. The walls around heaven were covered in the most beautiful stones. There was turquoise, sapphire, emerald, onyx and many others. Everything and everyone was at peace. I even seen a wolf and a lamb eating together. There was no sun and no moon. You didn’t need light because it shined so brightly from God. There was a crystal clear river that flowed right down the middle of the city. I had never seen anything so beautiful. I leaned down to take a drink. The water tasted so sweet and refreshing. There was a tree of life on each side of this river and these trees had 12 different kinds of fruit. I picked an apple and another one grew back. It was like nothing I had ever tasted before. I could not even begin to describe how amazing it tasted. There were the most beautiful homes I had ever seen built all over heaven and vineyards. Everyone I saw looked so happy and at peace. There were none sick or crying or angry. I began to hear singing. It sounded so beautiful. I could hear them singing Holy, holy, holy. But as I got closer, I saw something so amazing that I froze. I couldn’t move. I couldn’t take my eye off of them. I saw the Lord on his mercy seat. I could not see his face, there was light all around him. The most beautiful light with dancing colors sparkling out from it. But I knew it was him. I saw angels seated all around him, proclaiming God’s name, singing his praises. These angels were not like anyone else. They had several eyes and six wings. They never slept, never rested. All they did was sit at God’s feet and worship him. I turned around to see behind me and there were thousands of angels singing to God. And it was like they were all singing in their own language but it was so beautiful together. It flowed. You almost couldn’t tell that they were singing in their own languages. It was so beautiful I fell to my knees and began to cry. These were not sad tears though.
Then I heard someone calling my name. So I followed the sound of his voice. I saw Jesus. I could not see his face either, it was just a beautiful light but I saw his hands reaching out to me. I saw the scars on his wrists. He said My Child, Stormie (he called me by name), he said please take my hand. I have something to show you. So I took his hand. We walked through Heaven together. He allowed me to see people that I loved so much that has passed away. I saw my grandmother who raised me until she passed. I saw my best friend Natalie and my baby brother Dakota. I saw my daddy and my close friend John. I saw my best friend Jodi who was murdered. After seeing Jodi, he asked me, have you forgiven him? I knew what he was talking about but I felt ashamed and acted like I didn’t. He said have you forgiven the man who murdered you’re best friend? I looked down at the ground and I quietly said, no I haven’t. Then he asked me, have you forgiven your grandfather who abused you? And again I quietly said no, I haven’t then h told me, look at her. I looked at Jodi as she was dancing around heaven. Even on earth she was an amazing dancer. It was her passion. Jesus said, does it seem like she’s in pain? Does it look like she’s hurting? And I said no not at all. And Jesus asked me, then why are you still hurting yourself? He said by not forgiving this man, you’re hurting yourself. You’re closing the door to me. If you don’t open the door and give me what’s inside, then I can’t help you. I started crying and I told him but he took my best friend. He took her life away from her. Jesus wrapped his arms around me and said every man has free will. I couldn’t go against what he was going to do. But I can bring good out of the situation. He said she is happy and free now, she doesn’t have to face the horrors of what he did to her. And now there’s a organization in her honor helping other victims. He can’t hurt her anymore. He said you must stop letting him hurt you. I sat for a minute and just watched Jodi dance. She looked so beautiful. So happy. I turned to Jesus and said, I forgive him. The instant I said that, I felt something come over me that made me feel a hundred pounds lighter. It was like I could feel a release of something. Then Jesus grabbed my hand and said come with me. We walked around heaven until we came to an older man. He was fishing. Jesus said, do you see this man? That’s Frank. I asked Jesus who he was and he said Frank is you’re great grandfather. I had never met him before. Jesus told me Frank was not always a good man. Then all of a sudden it was like I was watching A movie in thin air. I saw this man Frank beating my grandfather. He was punching him and kicking him and choking him. My grandfather kept screaming I’m sorry. I’m sorry. Jesus told me, this was all he ever knew. He didn’t know what it was liked to be loved. He didn’t know what it was like to be treated good. All he knew was how to be beaten. So when he had a family, he did the only thing he knew to do. I felt horrible for my grandfather but at the same time I still felt angry. It was like Jesus knew what I was thinking. He said, it’s okay to be angry. Forgiving him doesn’t mean it’s okay. Forgiveness is a way of freeing yourself from all of the pain and suffering you have endured. I was crying so much. Jesus told me, inside of him, your grandfather loved you. You had a few good years together. But after your grandmother, father and brother died, your grandfather was in so much pain that he didn’t know what else to do but to drink and to hurt people. He did t know what else to do except to distract himself with the cult. Then Jesus took my arms and pulled up my sleeves. He said, do you see all those scars? I shook my head. He said, how is it you can’t forgive those who have hurt you, but you find it okay to hurt yourself? I couldnt stop crying. Jesus said let me help you to forgive. Not only your grandfather but yourself too. He told me give me those burdens to carry for you. He said if you can allow me to heal those hurts and to help you let go and forgive, that is only the beginning of what I will do for you. I knew exactly what he meant. I fell to the ground crying my eyes out and Jesus wrapped his arms around me and I just started saying over and over I forgive you I forgive you. I forgive you. Meaning both my grandpa and myself. After doing that Jesus picked me up off the ground and grabbed my arms again and rolled my sleeves back up. My scars were gone. All of them. And he said this is only the beginning. Then he grabbed my hand and we walked back to the gates where I entered heaven. Jesus said, do you believe that I love you? And I said yes. I do. And he said do you believe that I want to help you? And I said yes Jesus. Then he said do you believe that I can heal you? And I said yes. I believe that you can. And he said then your faith has made you well. When he said this I felt that warmth come over me and I felt like fire was burning inside of me. But it didn’t hurt. Not at all. It was like it was burning out all of the bad things.
Then Jesus came up to me and laid his hand on my shoulder and said my daughter, it’s time for you to go home. He said now is not your time. He said that he brought me here to show me that he loved me, and that he hasn’t left me. He said he brought me here so that he could help me to forgive because that unforgivness was a blockage that needed to be ridden of. He said he brought me here to let me know that there is hope and that this is not my time. He told me he had things that needed to be done and that only I could do them. He told me to have faith because this is not the end. He told me to keep my eyes focused on him and him only and that he will guide and direct me. And he told me that no matter what I’m going thru, don’t let it live inside of me. He told me to release it to him so that he can remove it from my life. Then Jesus gave me a hug and told me go home my child. Rest. Trust in me and watch me work in your life. Then he said this is only the beginning. After that I woke up and I ran to my nurse and said I have to tell you about this dream and I told her and she started crying. My whole body feels different. I’m not in pain, I’m not having problems breathing, my nurse took my vitals and they were all normal. I just started crying my eyes out and thanking God over and over. I cannot even begin to describe what I am feeling right now.
But whatever God is going to do in my life, I am ready!”
UPDATE 1-10-18 9:52 PM EST from Brother James